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Sunday, January 29, 2012

How do I look?

Well last night I tried to think positively about myself when going out with friends.  Going out creates such feelings of anxiety and stress for me and the way I think I look.  I am always so self conscious about the way I look and I feel like everyone is looking at me and judging me by my weight.  (I know everyone is really not looking at me!) I always look around wherever we are to see if there is someone who is fatter than me!  I know it's crazy, but it's what I do.  Most often, I feel like I am the biggest person in the room or I do find the biggest person in the room and in my head, that's what I look like.  Sounds weird to write down, but I don't know how else to explain it. Last night I tried to be more positive about my looks or really just not think about them.  I guess I do look better than I did before I began working out so much.  Or maybe a more positive attitude would be - I do look better! Baby steps, right?

On to the weigh-in...This week I stayed the same from last week.  I'm ok with that because of my diet.  I ate a lot this past week and I'm talking bad food!  I am hoping to stay positive throughout the week and have a good loss next Sunday!

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